Time and time again we have dealt with the strange behaviors of my daughter. Having just hit High School I figured things would start to settle a bit and that with age comes maturity. NOT! So right before spring break I get a call from the school telling me that she was suspended for three days and will also be in the in school suspension room for three days following being at home and not to commence until after spring break (this was the friday before spring break started). (yes that meant her being home for almost TWO solid weeks!).
Without going into details she was caught, on video, participating in some very unacceptable, promiscuous activity with her so called boyfriend. Oh wait, they were broke up at the time. I guess this was their "making up" session?
So I tell the school I can not come get her now as I feel I could hurt her. I waited three hours before dragging myself to the school. Nothing could have ever prepared me for the wave of fury that came over me when I saw her. I was ashamed, disguisted, angry etc... Had I not spent time after time with her telling her the importance of saving this activy for a special man at the right time? Had I not drilled into her the importance of being safe? Have I seriously been this bad of an example?
So we have made it past the time away from school and set tight boundries for her in school. This was all after the school begging me not to withdrawl her and home school her away from this environment that she doesn't seem to thrive in very well. After all, having her home every day would most likely take numerous years away from me and put me more than just a foot in the grave.
Now, HOW TO MOVE ON? I find it very hard, even now, with a month past us, to even look at my daugher and be civil to her. She asks for things and all I want to do is say, "..and you deserve this how?" I am very ugly to her and just basically dont like her much. We constantly bump heads and for the most part don't get along at all.
This is my very offspring and I can't stand to be around here. It wasn't suppose to be this way! I am so sad for her but at the same time can not stand her very existence at this point. I feel like a terrible mother at this point but I really am much to the contrary.
I guess "As Time Goes By"......
Without going into details she was caught, on video, participating in some very unacceptable, promiscuous activity with her so called boyfriend. Oh wait, they were broke up at the time. I guess this was their "making up" session?
So I tell the school I can not come get her now as I feel I could hurt her. I waited three hours before dragging myself to the school. Nothing could have ever prepared me for the wave of fury that came over me when I saw her. I was ashamed, disguisted, angry etc... Had I not spent time after time with her telling her the importance of saving this activy for a special man at the right time? Had I not drilled into her the importance of being safe? Have I seriously been this bad of an example?
So we have made it past the time away from school and set tight boundries for her in school. This was all after the school begging me not to withdrawl her and home school her away from this environment that she doesn't seem to thrive in very well. After all, having her home every day would most likely take numerous years away from me and put me more than just a foot in the grave.
Now, HOW TO MOVE ON? I find it very hard, even now, with a month past us, to even look at my daugher and be civil to her. She asks for things and all I want to do is say, "..and you deserve this how?" I am very ugly to her and just basically dont like her much. We constantly bump heads and for the most part don't get along at all.
This is my very offspring and I can't stand to be around here. It wasn't suppose to be this way! I am so sad for her but at the same time can not stand her very existence at this point. I feel like a terrible mother at this point but I really am much to the contrary.
I guess "As Time Goes By"......
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